…I often wonder how low do most folks kinky thoughts go? for those of you who have been apart of my lil world since inception, you know my thoughts can get pretty damn low! After bonding with the family Saturday, I came home, and magically I ended up a lil “twisted”… jus’ a lil!... and since I couldn’t indulge in my usual behavior, I let my mind wander… I go to thinking about those of us who have “different” sexual taste… I began to wonder at what point is it ok to discuss said likes, and put all your shit on the table. Now, I’m a firm believer that everything is not for everyone, and it’s important to know who you’re dealing with prior to sharing your dirty lil secrets, or shall I say dirty lil desires? *smile*

So, this is the jest of the blog… here’s how I broke it down when I had the trees all up in my system:

…i’m slightly buzzed, and that means I’m horny, and since my momma is hear, and my son is here, there is nothing I can do about being horny, but think about shit... consider shit... So here I sit, high, horny, and sittin here considering shit, and my fuckin panties are soakin fuckin wet... (and that’s puttin it mildly) and once again, since I can’t do shit about being horny, my brain is in overdrive… my thoughts are running rampant, and my fantasies are off the charts....

…now let me explain somethin to yawl, when I say fantasy, I’m not speakin of your average fantasy... “ I not your every day fantasy kinda girl”, my shit can go from different to bizarre depending on my mood, and my need.... On any given night (except for tonite), I’m in here plain with my pussy, conjuring up all types of shit, from being brutally raped, to that certain someone playin with my nipples, teasin them, all the while torturing them... to lying across my mans lap and him spanking the shit outta me, to being covered in candle wax from head to toe, to finger fuckin a female coworker in the ass… I’m thinking about all types of kinky deviant, not to be blogged kinda shit… all types of shit, and trust that what I wrote was was the mild shit, for fear of terrifying some of yawl…

…so, since a bitch can’t do what she likes to do, she got the thinkin some more, and began to wonder, how honest are we with our mates, regarding our true desires? Do we “with hold” desires for fear of lookin “weird”? Or “freaky”? And when I use the word freaky, I don’t mean in a good way, I mean in a freaky/strange way! (Had to clear that up!) What if a bi-curious chick, was married to a pretty sexually conservative dude, would she be comfortable tellin him she was curious about sleepin with other women... Probably not! And then there’s the chick who may be BDSM curious, and her mate is conservative? Or the husband, who desires a three some, but, he knows his wife isn’t havin it... Yawl get it... or, maybe the chick and or dude who’s into golden showers but they won’t share that desire for fear of being laughed at… I could go on and on, and get dirtier n’ dirtier!

…so, today’s questions is a simple one… at one point do two committed people lay all the cards on the table and begin to explore their kinks, fetishes, and otherwise abnormal sexual interests? Do you (yes you) have a kink that wouldn’t fit in the normal box? Lastly, if you were in a marriage and or situation and your partner was not at all interested in exploring your alternative sexual lifestyle/likes at one point do you either drop it, or move on to someone who is open to your form of sex play?

Talk to me peeps, once again, mami is on some need to know shit!

…as for me, A~Love~Supreme, the illicit ParaMour2Adore… being single, I’ve learned to read men, and women… in having this ability to read them, it has allowed me to pick n’ choose more like minded individuals… I firmly believe in laying all my shit on the table… BUT, only with those who can handle it… for me, it’s a matter of knowing who and what I’m dealing with… typically I end up with people who are a lot like myself, so when we are sharing our non-traditional sexual interests, it’s a big sigh of relief, because finally we’ve met someone who can appreciate the kink, and we no the “power of the play” when the kink is involved…

…for those of you who have been around for sometime, you know that BDSM is a MAJOR fantasy/interest of mine… fuck it, the lifestyle as a whole is of particular interest to me… however I tread very lightly with this lifestyle for several reasons… mainly because I know that once I go down this road, there will be no returning, and secondly there’s a great deal of trust that comes with any relationship but with BDSM the levels of trust far surpass that of your vanilla relationships… so my fantasies run very, very deep… and often times very, very dark… talk to me peeps, can the sharing of your deepest darkest desires, help or hinder the relationship?

Several blogs back, I posted a Q n’ A blog. one of the questions on the blog was posted by Dante M, and it goes a lil something like this: “if you threw the swingers party to speak about 4 yrs 2 cum, where and what would it be like? (Edited version, you might write another blog on that question, lol)” … the question got me to thinkin about the swingers party I’d throw, and who would be on the guest list…

If I ParaMour2Adore, Freshfixation, ALoveSupreme threw a swingers party, what kind of party would it be? It would be an all girl party featuring some of my favorites ladies of 360!

I’d call it A~Love’s sense and sensibility soiree… the atmosphere would be aromatic and candle filled, and the anything goes room would consist of a California king with pillow top mattress covered in yellow rose petals to symbolize pleasure amongst friends... this would be a no pressure environment, affording the voyeurs’ in the group to watch in delight…

The night would start off with a no pressure meet and greet, plenty of sangria to loosen the libido, and of course the atmosphere… while sipping on Sangria, and munchin on appetizer’s we would play a few games in order to get to know one another, and then, we would introduce ourselves, and discuss our likes and dislikes… as I listen to the introductions, I pay special attention, as I form mental hook up’s for the ladies… ensuring that everyone’s needs were met… every inch of the Condo would be utilized, living room, dining room, kitchen, balcony, office, and of course the master suite.. lil mans room would be used strictly for mixing and mingling, but no worries, the power rangers would be neatly tucked away…

This would be the night that the ladies of 360 would cum to together for foreplay and fireworks… this would be the night that I’d invite you to my domain to luxuriate in the essence of us… so tell me, would you accept my invitation…

Sidebar/disclaimer: invites have been done in no particular order, if your name was not posted it’s simply because I have not had the opportunity to get to know you! If your posted, and you are not bi, and or a lesbian, please don’t take offense, you are invited because you have made impression on me, and for that I extend this invitation)

Join me as I enter a fantasy starring most of you … Let the invites begin!

Honey ~ Dangerously Beautiful: oh my, after seeing you wiggle that thing in belly dancing, and learning of such a massive bust line, I’d like nothing more than to see you work your yoni free of such restrictive clothing…

Khepera: the chance to sit and talk and learn more about you and your lifestyle would extend you an invitation and to lap in the luxury of your upper awesome girls would provide be the utmost pleasure…

Kiwi: my sweet, I know that you are straight, no chaser! But to have the opportunity to sit and chat in person would be well worth the trip! Psst, you could hang out in the mix n’ mingle room… I promise the ladies would not lay an unwanted hand on you!

Mrs. Champion: oh to experience you and those nails... to expreince the carress of yur hands on my 36dd’s... the pleasure would be all mine! ~ i found out Mrs C. likes to swing but isn't BI, so i've deciced that she can watch, as i fantasize about her and her nails!

MahoganyDymond: the look in your eyes tells me that you are a force to be reckoned with… so innocent lookin!

DivaSista: I would enjoy the chance to get meet you in person! Psst… I know your straight, and make sure you left untouched…

ThaSweetestVanilla: all though low key, I know that you know, that I know, that you got some freaky ways about you, and of course I’d like to confirm that in person!

On Lock: I’m simply trynna to stop the foreclosure process and see what we can do to refinance under new conditions…

Ginger: oh Ms Ginger, oh how I’d love to see how that mind and that body works up close and personal! (Don’t tell nobody, but ummm, maybe I can hide “E” in the closet and you, me, and a few others can have a private soiree!)

Cleveland Peach: I’m trynna see if a Georgia Peach can be as sweet in Cleveland!

Strawberri: I love the way your berri bounces! Let’s see if you can make it clap and jus how loud!

Selena: those dreamy eyes do something to me! No worries, I’d have you shacked up with a few of my straight ladies… hands off! But I can dream right?

Silky: lawd have mercy! First and foremost I’ve been stalkin your blog foreva! I’m glad we finally connected... you inspire me to be a better me… and I’mma put it out there but between you and Gina, you two have opened my eyes to my BBW’S.. So sexy, so charming, so Silky! Glad we met… more than anything glad we connected, you’re a SupaStar, you are, you really~really are!

SoulSistacdj: Your mind and your spirit inspire and motivate me! You would be in attendance to lift our awareness, and make us all better individuals… no worries, hands off!

Lala: I’ve also stalked your blog for sometime! The way your mind works fucks me up… whenever I peep a blast or a blog, I look at that those damn pics and I’m immediately transfixed! I simply love the way your mind works… sexy, sensual, and intelligent, what mire can a girl ask for?... you my dear would be my buffet… (Hope you’re not offended!)

CaramelFantasy: hmmm, maybe I should change the location of the party to your deck! We could throw some hotdogs on the grill! I love the way you find me, even when I can’t find you!

BathroomReality: your aura is one of a kind, between you and T.S.V., yawl are some of the coolest white chicks on the net! And of course. Hands off Ms Ann, her body is for the men only…

TheQueen: your presence is requested in order to give you a break from life, a break from single mother hood, and in order to sit n talk, and make sure mr. toxic has left your heart...

ELMuthaFugginD: lovin the way your mind works, lovin the dedication to your Daddy, and lovin how you share your knowledge of the lifestyle with all of us newbies ~ come and break it down live and in person!

Ivykittie: I’m trynna see that lovely body up-close and fuckin personal! I don’t have to touch or taste, jus let me look and lurk!

Simply JackieandTony: oh Ms Jackie, no matter how man times i may not keep my word, or not show up, i still got mad love for you! bottomline, there is no other Jackie! we got some real good history, and you know how I love makin history with you! Plus, we gotta give’em something to look up to…

Tai: I wanna see jus’ how cocky you really are! Not sure of your status, so if you need to be in the don’t touch room, you jus let me know, and I got you!

StarrDust: you are my Star, for you, i would shine bright... i know, i know, your a good girl, for Mister only! post script: Ms Starr is pregnant, and you know i got a thing for pregnant women... i'll be good though!

Tippi: I wanna see how long those legs are my damn self! Lovin’ your laid back, In the 360 cut flow… and yes, I know your straight, I want you there so I can envision what’s in between those long legs!

The Tragicially Misunderstood: I know, I know, you’re straight! But dammit. I still love the way that mind works, and you can sit and watch! And, if that makes you uncomfortable, you can go to the mix n’ mingle, don’t touch room!

SpeakaBox: get on that box and speak dammit, and let me see if you can eat!

Shayla: Shayla, I really wanna playa! And ummm, you can meet me and ginger in the closet for a dose of “E”!

D’rasta’s slave true: you got girls, I got girls, can our girls play together? But only if Daddy allows it!

HisEnlightenedone: girl, you are another force to be reckoned with! Your play on words and the love you have for your Daddy is worthy of an up close n personal… will Daddy let you play with me?

Phatassdc: I want dat ass, dat pussy, those tits, and whateva else you can muster up! You got it goin on.. this soiree is jus what the doctor ordered... plus you know you wanna get nasty! c'mon mami, let me talk dirty to you!

Kixierocstar: I’m feelin like I would love your flow, up close n’ personal!

Beezy: oh Mami! Always sooo close, but yet so far away.. one of these day’s we’ll be on the same page, and we can cause some friction!

MJ: makin petite look real nice to eat! I’ve always felt you, and one day our paths will cross where I can feel you up close n personal... maybe at the party huh?

Oohshedeep: hmmmm, and jus’ how deep are you?... c’mon ova here and let me find out!

Sola: my lust for you runs real deep, I mean really, really deep, it always has, and it always will… you to me, are a pit bull in skirt, and lawd knows we cannot forget the collar!… But, I respect what you have, and I’m happy to sit back, and luxuriate in that which is Da~De’s! But maybe he’ll let you come and watch? You tube, can’t top this party Sis!

Carymel: you make my nipples swell, and my temperature rise… now if you can do that via this venue, imagine what you’ll do to me in person?

Lilith: you my dear are my this and that, always appreciating a lil this, and a lotta that, and for that i loves me some you... my Soultree (sorry), and my Baby Girl, your attendance would be most appreciated, so I could give you the spankin you need… I promise to not hold back, and maybe jus maybe we could do a lil mutual mastur… well, you get it! hey, if you bring your toys, and i got my toys, we could do a lil to exchange!

Thisgirlneicy: knowledge is power, and if for nothing else I’d sit you down, pick the hell outta our brain, while I mentally undress you…

TamuAsali: girl, I jus fuckin love you! I would put on my wig, and for you. Would make all your wishes come true. If you want me to be blonde, than dammit, I’ll be a blonde… I’d break you in nice and slow… and later, you, me, Lilith, Sola, and a few others could run off to the balcony for some real fun!

Alwayzaladee: something in those eyes got me thinking I need to meet you in the ladies room! So alluring… come n join us!

Sexy1: with your innocent self! You to would be in the don’t touch, mix n’ mingle room… to meet you in person would be a true delight!

Mzchievious1: feelin your pain Mami, come this way, and let me ease it for you!

Sweet_Sounds: it would be an honor to see first hand just how sweet it really sounds!

H/HisSweetz: shhhh, don’t tell nobody, but ummm, I was thinking me you, and Ms Jackie could have our own private session after the ladies got ghost!

Well, my sweets! This was merely an off da cuff tribute to all of you… I enjoy my daily parties with you all… each and every one of you has touched me in some special way, and I hope to continue the flow in the days, weeks, and months to come! In the meantime, let’s get this fuckin party started… I smell pussy. And lots of it!

One mo’ again… if you were mentioned and you are not bi, or bi curious, gay, my apologies, this was not done to offend, this was done outta 360 love for all of you who were mentioned….

Now Got Dammit, who is that on my left nipples, and who’s finger is sliding in my pussy, and oh my...do I feel a bullet in ass? Oohwee, this all girl party is the shiznit…

Pass the Sangria!...don’t tell anybody, but somebody told me that she had tree’s ready to be smoked on the balcony… oh shit. We fittin get real kinky now!

*muah*

...got dammit I am so fuckin bored, I’m going crazy… I swear if I don’t find a job that requires me to use at least the right damn side of my damn brain; I am goin to shoot myself! Any who, I was surfing last night, and ran across this Q n’ A on Cas Daddy's blog... it loked like fun so I thought I'd boost it, answer it, and post it...

...see what happens when a sista is bored?

1. What it shake like? Jell-O on a good day… a salt shaker on an ok day...

2. What it clap like? It clap’s like cymbals… clank, clank, clank…

3. What it taste like? It tastes like Pellegrino with a splash of peach…

4. What it ride like? Like a Stallion baby, taking you to new heights! I can speed it up or slow it down, cuz I’m ridin, and I’m runnin the show…

5. What it feel like? Smooth as silk and as soft as these 400 thread count sheets, that I can’t live without…

6. What it flow like? It flows like a leaky faucet baby, never leaving you thirsty!

7. What it grip like? Hmmm, that depends on what your workin with… the grip is only as good as the dick, the bigger the dick, the tighter the grip…

8. What it cum like? Like the river Jordan… and ummm if you’re extra lucky, you may even witness a stream… many have tried, “most” have failed!

9. How you like it fucked? Hard n fast, can you handle that? Or slow n methodic if you’re worth my while…

10. You like it fucked hard or soft? Hmmm, didn’t I just address this! Fuck me hard, make me think your taking the pussy, beating the pussy, goin Mandingo on the pussy... yeah, mutha fucka, fuck me into submission... many have tried, and ummm, they have ALL failed! Gotta lil carried away... SORRY!

11. How you like it sucked and eat? I want you to suck it, finger fuck it, get it nice and sloppy wet, and then suck it all ova again… and when your finished I want you to get in my face, and let me lick my juices off your face, to ensure the smell of my sweet pussy is mixing with your breath! Bottom-line, when your finished, your nose, lips, and chin should be covered in the essence of this sweet, sticky pussy… did I answer the question for you? Mutli task mutha fucka, all ground MUST be covered, pussy, ass, clits, and all corresponding walls...

...that was fun! Is it 5:00pm yet?

...I’m sittin here thinkin about what I can do to re-create my sexy. I can’t bring back something that was never lost, but I am constantly seekin new ways to re-create my sexy, and to feel sexy at every waking moment... for me, sexy is a state of mind, and in my mind I am sexy at all times... So lesson number one is thinkin, feelin, and selling yourself on your own levels of sexiness...

...several weeks ago, I surrounded myself around a group of sexy vivacious 360 women who are in their own right some sexy ass diva’s... we participated in a belly dancing class, I was nowhere near prepared for this class however, I had a blast, and have decided to add it into my weekly routine... You may ask why belly dancing? Well, it’s a form of exercise, but most importantly belly dancing and erotica go hand and hand... And we all know how I feel about erotica, and lawd knows I am constantly seekin ways to add to my erotic library... but more than anything to see a room filled with women of all shapes and sizes getting their belly dance on inspired me in more was than one... Being in that room confirmed that we as women are sexy no matter what shape, size, or color, sexy as stated earlier is: a state of mind, a state of being...

...so this blog is in celebration of all my sexy 360 female friends, sort of a public service announcement, if your feelin down and out, feelin like your swagger is off, and your sex game has gone, always remember one simple rule you hold the key to releasing your sexy, it’s a matter of flipping a switch, and finding what’s sexy for you, and to you... Make it happen ladies, we all have somethin, unique and sexy within us, figure it out, plant the seed, water the seed, nurture the seed, and watch it grow....

...being a simplistic girl the keys to my sexy are simple.... I will share with you a "few" things that aid me in my quest for sexy, in the hopes you will share what makes you feel sexy...

• The sweet smell of sexy:
  
  

for me, a bottle of Ralph Lauren Turquoise sets the tone for my sexy mind set... I was always a fragrance hound, but when little man was born, I had to put the brakes on the layering of perfume... Talk about a blow to my sexy! When a sista was walkin around with no perfume on I thought all hell was gonna break loose, but in being a mom, you realize that sacrifices must be made... After a 2 year fragrance hiatus, I decided to become one with my bottle, and with a quick spray of an atomizer, I was immediately transformed into the sexy vixen I had always been, who got lost in the early stages of motherhood... Oh what a feelin! (tip of the day: if your a fragrance wearer, I suggest layering, it’s best to by the body lotion that compliments the fragrance, however a non-scented lotion or Vaseline works wonders, place your lotion of choice in hand, and spray the perfume in the lotion, and then rub the lotion as usual! Nothin like a lil layering for a long lasting impression.)

• A pair of fuck me pumps, to aid in my sexy swagger:
  
  

now I don’t know about the rest of my sexy sista’s in crime, but ummm, the right pair of shoes can make a sista feel sexy on any given day... I am a self proclaimed shoe obsessed sista... I will spend my last dime on a pair shoes, it’s a damn shame, but you best believe, it’s true! Somethin about puttin on a sexy high heel sandal on a hot summer day to transform my mind set from blah to blissful... Can’t put my finger on what a pair of shoes does for my soul, but i’mma tell ya, I become powerful in the right shoes, and the compliments that follow, let me know that, I do have the power... I blame it on my momma!

• A flirty little skirt to bring out the flirt in me...
  
  

Somethin about putting on a dress, or a sexy lil skirt to awaken the sleepin beast... I ran track as a child and have a mean set of calves! So the combination of some sexy stiletto’s along with my sexy calves, in a sexy ass dress or flirty lil skirt is an added boost to my sexy factor.

• M.A.C. makeup, does a face and the spirits REAL good...
  
  

I am a makeup junkie! Simple as that... I consider myself to be an overall attractive female, (overall meaning looks and personality) but when I “beat” my face, I transform... I become “super Teal”... At one time the make up was my “Linus” blanket, I would not leave the house without my face being beat from the eyebrows to the lips... Motherhood has changed that, and the funny thing is I get more pull when I’m without makeup... It’s not a necessity, but it’s mos def the one simple thing I can do that will give me an immediate boost, and the one thing to put me in that “sexy zone”...

• Bubbles and candle light...
  
  

I was always a bath taker, never liked showers, baths are more relaxing and outside of my balcony the bathtub is where I get in tune with my thoughts.. Baths like perfume were forgotten when I had lil man, I would take a bath and freak out when he would cry... That didn’t last long, once I got back to work from maternity leave I realized that taking a shower required less time... Once lil man got a lil older I got back into taking baths... I started to incorporate candles, mixed in with my absolute favorite luxury bath gels, and every so often I’ll go holistic and get down with a aroma therapy bath... For me a candle lit bath with a nice glass of Chardonnay makes a sista feel extra sexy, often times the appetizer for a nite of finger play! Ummm, how sexy is that? (another tip from Teal, some may prefer lotion, some may prefer good ole’ Vaseline, but there is nothing that can compare to a sweet smelling souffle, or body creme! Trust me on this... it’s like butta baby! Butta for the body that is...)

• A peek at my perfection....
  
  

Ok, we all know I got a thang for my breast! I can’t help it, there fat, juicy, and the nipples are perfect, and let’s not forget they lactate... Fat, juicy ass, lactating nipples may not be the next persons cup of tea, but let me tell ya, I get off on lookin at these humongous tits! When I’m dressin in the morning or undressing in the evening, I always take a pause for the breast cause... I admire my breast for the ability to be so damn big and not sag as much as they should or could! Lookin at these juicy tits raise my sexy factor instantly!

...so, these are a few things that make me feel sexy, the list can go on and on... But i’m interested in hearing from my peeps! Now, I know my girls will add to this list freely, but I really wanna know what makes my brothas feel sexy? Do men even know when they’re sexy? Talk to me peeps, mami’s on a need to know basis!

in closing, remember this:

sexy is truly, as sexy does!

post scripts and afterthoughts: i wrote this blog a few weeks ago, probably after the first belly dancing class ( by the way since lil man has been back i haven't been able to attend belly dancing, which i miss a great deal! with us getting into a good school flow i'm hopin to incorporate the class into our weekly routine)... as i sit here reviewing prior to posting, i can’t believe i didn’t include one of my absolute favorties: feet and hands! I swear there is something to be said about well manicured hands, with perfectly placed jewelery... i guess it’s my love of funky rings on nice fingers, but something as simple as lotioned hands along with the perfect ring also makes mami feel extra sexy!

Aight, i’m outta here... talk to me peeps, tell me what you do to recreate the sexy in you... once again, i'm on a need to know basis! *wink*