...so, last week after my well deserved Tabu experience, I get home and parked illegally cuz a sista wasn’t feelin the walk up the hill, hell my thighs were hurtin from swingin in the damn swing! So, I leave out the next day, and I see all these pink and yellow slips in the wipers (tickets)... As I get closer to the truck, low n behold, I have NO tags.. I was outdone... So, here I am all dressed up and no tags to drive the truck with... WTF?

...first and foremost, I failed to take my truck to emissions in 2006, and ummm, why have I been driving with suspended tags since May 2006? Lawd have mercy can you imagine what woulda happened had I been stopped by the po-po and lil man being in the car? The thought alone has had me straight trippin! On top of all that, why did my drivers license expire in April 2006, and why didn’t I know until I went to write a check last week, and the clerk kindly informed my happy ass... "mam, your license is expired"! Can you say: " wake the fuck up"! Needless to say the DMV, oops sorry, your not in DC anymore lil momma, it’s MVA, did send me notices about this shit, but I just tossed the shit to the side, with a few other important pieces of information... Let me tell yawl, I have been denying the proceeding statement for the past 12months, but I am now ready to admit it... My ass has been in a major funk for the past two years... Dare I say: depressed! Fuck it, my ass has been depressed.. All fucked up over this living situation, 38 at the time with my momma movin in and knockin my groove... And then hurricane papi came into the picture, and my ass ain’t been right since... Now trust and believe that I can only blame myself, but for real, these two events have been some serious life changing events for me....

...so here I sit, chapters have been closing for the past few weeks... Papi is out of the picture, and from the lack of calls, I’d say he finally got it, or better yet, maybe’s there a distraction on the horizon, and all I can say is: all praises be to Allah, cuz we needed him to spin his web on some unsuspecting sista who would like me, get caught up in the charm of it all... And, mother dear, ms flower power is movin Saturday! Can you say: wooofuckinhooo! Lawd have mercy I’ve been lookin forward to this day for the past 3 months, now I will miss the hell out of her, but I am sooo lookin forward to having my house to myself, no lil man, and no mother dear! Umph, umph, umph, what the hell am I gonna do with myself? *evil grin* ...I’m sure I’ll come up with somethin! So mom leaves Saturday, and I’m gonna transport her car to Cleveland on Tuesday, so, all my Cleveland folks I will be in the area, making my presence known next week! My visit will be short, but I hope to put names to I know at least one face... I’m thinkin somethin good may await me in the great state of Ohio! Only time will tell... (Notice I wrote "great" state of Ohio!)... while visiting, I’m hoping to take care of some school stuff, and to also visit a few perspective properties, both for sale, and for rent... So, I’m praying for a successful trip... Although I am not lookin forward to stayin at my cousins or my moms house, cause these folks don’t like and don’t have air conditioning! And that, sucks! Now, that I think about it, I think this is my first ever trip to Cleveland in the summer! Hmmm, this should be interesting, peepin out Euclid Avenue in the dead of summer... For my DC folks, Euclid Ave is the Georgia Avenue of Cleveland...

...now that a sista is starting to see and think a lil clearer, I am finally ready to give up this juicy ass pussy! Man, my ass is HORNY... Let me say that again... I am HORNY! My black ass hasn’t even played with the pussy! Between the personal drama, and the heat, my ass hasn’t given it much thought... However, my pussy has been soakin, sloppy, faucet wet! And let me tell ya, when I finally got my license in hand the joint started jumpin and shit...

...any who, things aren’t quite normal jus yet, whatever the hell normal is, but I’m experiencing a sense of calm that I have not experienced in some time... This past weekend I was hangin out with the girls, and they even noticed that the old me was resurfacing! My best friend went as far to tell me that, she has noticed that I haven’t bright up papi in some time! She told me she was nervous, cuz either I was hiding the fact that I was still communicating with him, or I was REALLY done, the other friend chirped in stating that he must be out of the picture, cuz my ass was acting and sounding like the Teal they know and love! Man oh man, what a difference a break up can make! Can you say revitalized, refreshed, and rejuvenated! Hell I feel like I’ve been smokin some crack, that’s how high "on me" I am at this present time... It’s a wonderful feeling...

...gotta admit one thing to my peeps! I am soooo missing my lil man... Never in a million years would I think I’d miss him so much... He’s been leaving me every summer all his natural life, but this year is different, we bonded like never before this past year, so my lil soldier is missed like crazy! In the meantime, he could give a fuck... now, I know he misses me, but the south can be very good to a lil boy who lives up north in a condo! His lil ass is runnin and playin and pickin cherries and shit... And, he is also getting away with pure murder, he called me yesterday on some, "Mommie, don’t be mad, but grandma got me some heelies"! Man I was pissed... I told him NO heelies until he turned 8... Damn heelies, her ass must not know that they are the number one child related emergency room visit in the country, not to mention that the accidents are so out of control most health insurances aren’t covering the visit... I quickly told him and grandma, that the heelies, will stay in Carolina, no need for them to make an appearance in the tri-state area, he will NOT be wearing them on my watch! Got damn heelies! I hate those shits... Kids rollin thru malls and shit with those damn things, it’s freakin ridiculous! Of course, I was the bitch of all mothers when it was all said and done... Oh well! I’m the rule maker and rule breaker, you broke the rule and the heelies will be staying in Carolina, how dare she override my parenting decision... Bitch!

...Any who, things are lookin up for me and my lil world! my next big hurdle is this house of mine, man my place is a wreck! I see and feel a major overhaul comin upon my return! My living room is empty, so I need to move some shit around to make it inviting for the open houses that will be starting in August... By the way, anyone interested in buying a condo in the metro area, look at sista up, I’m selling it below appraised/market value, and you would come in with at least 15,000 in equity... Hit me up if your interested!

...I’m finding that with the start of page #10, my desire to blog is decreasing more and more... Well, let me say that my desire to maintain my usual "sexual" blog flow appears to be diminishing... then again it could be due to my not havin any good mind blowing, scream at the mountain top sex... trust and believe that I will be workin on that in the days, not weeks, but days to come... a sista is needin it bad, I’ve been in straight drought mode, and mommie is needin her fix bad... Fuck it, I’m startin to feign, I’m having visions of naked men with big ass dicks, giving me lap dances as I sit on the balcony! Time for a sista to mate!

...on another note, might I add that I’m kinda glad the blog was deleted, it gives me the chance to clean house and rid myself of the dead weight... But, In the same breathe, as I make my rounds, i'm noticing a lot of 360 drama... what's up with dat?, can we all jus get along? No offense, but folks gotta realize this is the net! I’m sure we all have enough realtime drama, do we really need drama on 360? Also ladies, if your pursuing a man thousands a miles away, and you think, you’re the only one he is interested in, please, please, please, think again... IT’S THE FREAKIN NET...

...aight yawl, I’m outta here! I hope to have some sexy, raunchy, raw blog comin your way in the very near future... Au revoir babies!

Please note that all figures, and personal details have been changed as to maintain some degree of privacy... some, being the key word!

...ok, my parents divorced many years ago, when I was in the 3^rd grade... They have always maintained a relationship, mainly for me... Dad dies in 1998, in his passing he made sure his baby girl, would be taken care of...

...now, when he actually died, I had no real money, I was working check to check... So mom stepped up to the plate and had no issue covering the funeral costs until various monies became available... Once all loot was in hand, I paid her back for the funeral $8500.00, plus gave her $10,000.00 for being my momma...

...well, a year later, she stated that the $10,000.00 was not enough and that she needed $30,000.00 in order to be comfortable in her retirement... Ok... Well, this is when things get a lil crazy... She has over 200+ in the bank, and because she is old school, she has a boat load of mattress money at her disposal... And she gets a FAT retirement check... So, her needing these funds baffled me... she’s not one of these jet setting senior citizens, and she’s a tight ass, so she’s not a spender or a shopper.. Very, very frugal!

...so, because I would not give up said monies, she sold the family home... now, when she sold the home, she gave me 75,000 towards my condo, it was a gift, not a loan, I clarified that when the check was being written... Keep in mind, I didn’t ask for it, nor did I need it... In her words, it was the right thing to do... so, I took it, not realizing it was the gift that would always need to give back...

...fast forward to the past week... So, I’m in the process of selling my condo, I’ve made the decision to lower the sales price considerably in order to get this bitch to move fast... So I’m going over my plans regarding the proceeds... I wanna by a few more pieces of investment property in upstate New York, and I wanna by a lil house in Cleveland so I won’t have to worry about paying rent while I’m in Ohio... and I need a new truck BAD... Once I leave Ohio, I will rent the house out via the state... So, I’m telling her all this and she’s listening... And she tells me that I’m on the right track, and it sounds like a good plan, offering financial security...

...next day, at 6:00am she comes in my room on some, you never mentioned what you were going to do for me? And I’m lookin dumbfounded! What? What do you mean? For you?... well, she went on to tell me that she feels that she is entitled to $30,000.00 the magic number as she invested in this place! Ok... Now I’m trippin... Now my intentions were to break my momma off, cuz it’s just me and her, and that’s the right thing to do... But, to tell me that she was entitled to this money... Tripped me the fuck out... and to tell me that she wants $30,000.00 blew me the fuck away! My plan was to break her off, but not $30,000.00 more like $15,000.00.. We have this huge blow up over this... I mean it got ugly... But, this is the clincher: the reason she feels that she is entitled to this money is because had she not adopted me, I never would have had these financial opportunities... And I’m thinkin, had I not been adopted by such a cold, heartless ass woman, maybe I wouldn’t be so fucked up!

...now, I’m trippin’... This whole scenario has caused mad drama in my home... I mean childhood wounds have been re-opened, and all types of shit came out... So now, we are at war... Doors slamming, all types of crazy ass shit... I ended on you go your way, I’m goin my way, and I’ll make sure you hear from your grandson on a weekly basis and will see to it that you get pictures on the regular... Now, when I’m done, I’m done... Never in a million years could anyone tell me that my mom would be like this... To me as a mother, I would look at this as... My child and grandchild, will be ok! They have a safety net, a cushion, one less thing for her to worry about... But instead, it’s about the MONEY... And what she feels she’s entitled to... In the meantime, I’m jus blown away...

my question to you is this: is she entitled? Is her $75,000 gift, a gift that keeps on giving? Am I being selfish? Is it wrong for me to want to give to her from my heart, with me determining the amount?

...in closing... Money is the root to all evil, I have seen what money can do to folks, I have seen folks come out of the wood work, with hands out, beggin for help! I have seen friends change before my eyes because, they now have the mind set, of "you got it"... Yes, I got it, I got it for me, and mine, not you and yours!